So, what did I win? A spiritual victory. You see, about a month ago, I asked my Father to really teach me about faith. You know, the Hebrews 11 Hall of Faith kind of faith. I wanted my faith to grow. I wanted to be able to trust no matter what the circumstances appeared to be. Over this past week, the struggle was apparent as I was asked by God to give up those things that I was holding so close to my heart. Those sorts of things that years ago I had promised to let Him have control over. He called me on it. He cashed in, so to speak. So, I let go. I knew that He loved me and that He would do the very best for me. I happened upon James 2 and found out that my deeds combined with my faith, made my faith complete. Complete. That was the victory. My faith, tried by fire and purgings, was made complete. You can't argue with that.
Does that mean that all of my earthly struggles are over? Definitely not. Does that mean I will have to face no more personal heart ache? Again, not. But did I gain something eternal? Something that has more value than anything else this world can offer.